Anonymous
Beloved of All
I have been struggling with my oldest son, my firstborn child, as he's gotten older and had his own children and has gotten a new girlfriend, soon-to-be wife, who really just hates me and my family. It's not even this knowledge is as even being his mother, she has had him and brainwashed him to be pushed away from me when we were so close, and it's really hard to go day-to-day being in the struggle of no matter what you do, it's never good enough or right. And I know people change as they get older, but to have somebody like that make you feel inside like you do when once upon a time he was just a young boy and he prayed for my health because I was in a bad spot in my you know past, and he has forgot to take my hand and help me, and through prayer it happened and I'm healed, I'm healing, let's put it this way. But to reunite with my children I've been losing, I am just so I want my oldest son to not hurt and just hate me. I guess he he holds a grudge against me for things I'm not unsure about, especially since his father has lied about things as you know he I gave him custody of him when he was younger and cuz he was a boy and I was just a young girl myself, I was a 16-year-old teenage mom trying my best to do what I could for my children. But yeah, I was there most of his life, but he seems to be so angry with me now that he's gotten older and has his own children, and I just want to be able to be his mom. Cuz no matter how I've tried to do the best I can as being a mom, it was never good enough or the best or non-shameful I guess to my children, but I wanted to know that I love them dearly and they're my life, there's what keeps me going day-to-day no matter if they're grown or growing help too you know respect me as his mother again or to know how much I love him and him did love him as he was growing up until he met or give you know maybe it's actually I need prayer for ### his soon-to-be wife to let me in to let her heart grow with love more than hate. I don't know I don't even I don't even know how to explain it, I just need help. Thank you for everybody who's can help me with this.