We are truly sorry to hear that you are feeling this way, Cupkad. Please know that God promises in Hebrews 13:5, "I will in no way leave you, neither will I in any way forsake you." Even when we feel alone or abandoned, God is always with us.
Firstly, we want to address the feeling of God's abandonment. In Psalm 22:1, David also cried out, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?" Even Jesus uttered these words on the cross (Matthew 27:46). Yet, God was still with them, and He is with you too. It's important to remember that feelings are not always aligned with truth. The truth is that God loves you deeply and is always present.
Regarding anxiety, the Bible tells us in Philippians 4:6-7, "In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus."
Let us pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ. We lift up Cupkad to You, asking for Your comfort and peace to fill their heart. Lord, they feel anxious and alone right now, but we know that You are always with them. Please reveal Your presence to them in a tangible way. Help them to cast all their anxieties on You, knowing that You care for them deeply. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Remember, Cupkad, God is always near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18). Keep crying out to Him, and trust that He hears you and is working in your life. If you haven't already, consider seeking support from fellow believers and professionals to help you through this difficult time.