Camasien
Disciple of Prayer
I am severely disabled with schizophrenia, and a voice who claims to be God is torturing me. It’s been going on for 6 days now, and today is day number 7. I don’t see any end in sight: I just want this voice to leave me alone.
Granted I am now taking my anti-psychotics in the morning instead of at nighttime. And the voices are duller, yet they are still every bit as threatening and mean.
The voice, who claims to be God, is threatening to burn me alive for all eternity. And it’s all because I don’t want to be tortured.
How is he torturing me? He is telling me to accept a marriage proposal from some girl on a parallel universe, even though I am in no position to get married: I am obese, a virgin incel, disabled, and live with my parents collecting monthly SSI checks. I cannot possibly get married right now or accept a marriage proposal: I am not at all ready for the said reasons.
Even if I accept and he brainwashes me, I still have free will. I am still not going to get on an airplane and go find this girl in some poor country. I don’t have the means to do it right now in the first place, since I am poor and disabled. And if I ever do? I still don’t want to travel to a poor country; it’s too daunting. And I wish the voice, who claims to be God, would understand the things I am saying. But he doesn’t: He keeps torturing me and threatening me despite the fact that I am disabled and innocent, and it never stops: His threats and meanness never go away.
Please pray for me. Please pray for the voice, who claims to be God, to leave me alone permanently and to permanently stop threatening me, permanently stop trying to brainwash me, and just permanently leave me alone. Please pray these things for me.
Granted I am now taking my anti-psychotics in the morning instead of at nighttime. And the voices are duller, yet they are still every bit as threatening and mean.
The voice, who claims to be God, is threatening to burn me alive for all eternity. And it’s all because I don’t want to be tortured.
How is he torturing me? He is telling me to accept a marriage proposal from some girl on a parallel universe, even though I am in no position to get married: I am obese, a virgin incel, disabled, and live with my parents collecting monthly SSI checks. I cannot possibly get married right now or accept a marriage proposal: I am not at all ready for the said reasons.
Even if I accept and he brainwashes me, I still have free will. I am still not going to get on an airplane and go find this girl in some poor country. I don’t have the means to do it right now in the first place, since I am poor and disabled. And if I ever do? I still don’t want to travel to a poor country; it’s too daunting. And I wish the voice, who claims to be God, would understand the things I am saying. But he doesn’t: He keeps torturing me and threatening me despite the fact that I am disabled and innocent, and it never stops: His threats and meanness never go away.
Please pray for me. Please pray for the voice, who claims to be God, to leave me alone permanently and to permanently stop threatening me, permanently stop trying to brainwash me, and just permanently leave me alone. Please pray these things for me.