Buddaris
Disciple of Prayer
Please pray for my mom, step dad and sisters family, for healing deliverance and restoration of faith and renewed spiritual vigor. As for myself im not in a good place, ive been struggling with adult websites and lust, However i was mildly successful and fighting off my urges this weekend until this morning. I cant sleep, i am being tormented with itchy skin, or crawling skin at around 1 to 3 or 4 in the morning. Its takes my sleep, on a workday week. Makes me cranky, moody and angry and makes me careless after calling on the name of the Lord for help and nothing happens, which leads me to not care about sin. And find pleasure in it cause i found no satisfaction calling on the name.of the Lord Jesus last night i hate being sleep deprived, its dangerous for me, spiritually and physically and for others on the road if im driving tired. It is getting me angry with God, cause im doing all in my power to run to him, to turn from my error and but then it feels like he drops the ball and the enemy picks it up and goes running for a touchdown. I dont want this filthy tormenting lifestyle, why cant the orince of peace give peace. Now i gotta pump myself with redbull all day just to stay awake