i have been mentoring a sister in Christ
that has severe mental illness for about 5 years now...
as a volunteer a friend a sister in Christ and a daily prayer partner too
her psychiatrist is soo thilled that i am her friend...
and highly approves of me...too...as well...
as a good influence and a wonderful listener and friend to her...
but she also has one foot in the world
and one foot in the church...
and more times then not
is in the world most of all
though she knows The Lord
and she makes many compromises to get what she wants
at any given time
and takes great risks too to get her own way...in life and with people...
irregardless of the consequences to herself
and those around her...as well...
and now...i also believe that prescription
drug abuse is now involved here...
and new doctor's are being conned for pain medicine
that previous doctor's refused to prescribe for her as well...
it has become soo heart--breaking for me
that i feel there is not much more i can do or say or especially pray...
and i feel i need to finally terminate this association
for my whole physical emotional and spiritual well-being...
before i am more negatively effected then i already have been...
i also can not determine the truth from the lie's any more
and i often cry out for true discernment...
and to truly and sincerely know
when i am being manipulated and conned and just used...
and many times i am even lied to...
because of my kind and caring heart to minister...and help her...
and honestly it is making me soo very sick in every way more and more now...
i have walked away before from this person
for my own well--being
but they asked me to give them yet another chance
and their own grandmother also had asked her to again
call me for help in the past...
even after i had ended everything
as even her own family is at a lose here with her...
so i gave them a few more chances...
but nothing changes
and it only seems to be now getting worse and worse...
and much worse as each new day goes by.
it just get's worse and worse everyday now
at a very accelerated rate too...
and is only more and more of the same...
i need to end this association
and i know that...
this is also very hard for me
as i have much love and affection for them...
and i in turn have no one else to speak to
that i can pray with on the phone daily and read the bible with...
and take communion with...and we even have a little church service too...
but from a place of a loving final good--bye
i do believe this has to and should be done now... as it is no longer edifying to me...
and then...maybe and perhaps then God can send someone
who is far more equipped to counsel her
and much stronger then i am
and more settled then i am at this point in my whole life
to help her....who also has a psychological background
perhaps a degree in that...or perhaps a licensed Pastor
with a degree in pastoral counseling...or a good Christian Licensed Therapist...
i ask for a final confirmation from The Lord
and someone new sent by God to take their place
in my life...who is a more healthy friendship
and we can both be up--lifted and fellowship together
that is mutually spiritually
and emotionally
and even physically well
and healthy and beneficial for us both...
i think of Ruth and Naomi alot
and Ruth and Boaz too...from the book of Ruth
and
Queen Esther and her Uncle Mordecai...from the book of Esther...
and also Joseph and Mary...from The Gospel's
i often seek and cry out for these kind of Pure and Godly relationship's
in every single area of my life...
between sister's and brother's and myself...now....
it seems lately
they are soo very very hard to find these days...even in the church and that is soo
very very sad indeed for me...
PLEASE
FATHER GOD
ABBA--DADDY
PLEASE HELP ME WITH ALL OF THIS
IN JESUS'S NAME...
PLEASE SEND ME MATCHES MADE IN HEAVEN
THAT ARE ORDAINED BY YOU...
CALLED OF BY YOU...
ORCHESTARTED BY YOU...
AND PROVIDED BY YOU
AND ARE YOUR GOOD AND BEST AND SOO PERFECT WILL FOR ME...
IN EVERY AREA OF MY LIFE PLEASE...
thank-you soo much Lord God
again i ask seek and knock at this very critical time in my life...continually...
for wisdom strength and the courage to do what i feel
i must and should now do...and please again confirm and re-confirm all of this to me...even this very evening if possible...
Dear Father in Jesus's name...
with no shadow of a doubt...
of what Your Perfect Will Is Here...
Daddy--God i pray for this to happen in Jesus's name
Amen...
Help me set more healthy boundaries for myself
and may the people who are in my life respect them all as such too...
do not allow anyone
to take advantage of me...any more...
i seek healthy and whole relationship's
and not one's where perhaps i am enabling another...inadvertently...
because i do care soo very much
or am just being used
for their own ill-gotten gain
and / or selfishness...
i want and need to be respected...in every single relationship...
and i want to be totally equally yoked up too...
and i desire above all else
Your Blessing's in all relationship's...
AND TO KNOW BEYOND ANY SHADOW OF A DOUBT
THAT THEY ARE YOUR PERFECT WILL FOR ME...
AGAIN
FATHER I ASK ALL OF THIS
IN JESUS'S NAME
AMEN..... and Amen....
please honor this whole prayer time
and may it bear much good fruit to my account in heaven above
and right down here on earth
in the present...too...
i simply desire to do what is right in your eye's Lord...x.o.x.o.x...
i am seeking Your will...in this matter
not mine...please honor that
and answer swiftly my urgent request...
and prayer from my heart tonight...
again i ask this in Jesus's name always
of You Father Son and Holy Ghost
Amen...x.o.x.o.x...