Anonymous
Beloved of All
-Was Christianity a better choice?
-Who does God, who is love, allow the wicked to prosper and His children to suffer?
Years ago, I was born to a Muslim family. My father named me ... after a white missionary engineer who led him to Christ. He was later assassinated by his family because it was believed he was an abomination to the family and the community. Christianity in my community is a shame. I grew believing Christianity was the best thing that ever happened to me. I have been determined never to give up my faith for anything. I grew up and have been living as a destitute till date. For over 30 years, God has never had mercy on me.
I read about Joseph who suffered and later became governor.
I read about Ruth, I read about Jeremiah who was known as the weeping prophet, I read about Job, Peter, Paul, Naomi and even about Jesus Christ. With these characters, I believed struggling is always a part of the Christian journey.
This time, I find it difficult to understand why all these challenges happen to me. Recently, the Bible has given me assurance in time of distress.
Life has brought me to the junction of confusion. Life has made me feel like going back to the world. Apart from those who persevered in the Bible, all those who persevered in real life died suffering. Their children are suffering and dying. They went through a lot of disappointment, false accusation, persistent sickness, hunger and starvation, homelessness all for Christ. They fasted and prayed but suffering never ended.
Is this how we will suffer and die? I am living with 3 pastor children and a Muslim convert. We only comfort ourselves but have no hope of survival. We were many, dying one after another at almost all below 40 years till just 4 left. Presently we have been going for days without food. I have not taken a bath for 3 days. Yet my God is alive, working everything for my God.
We have suffered from a lot of near-success disappointment. Each time we are close to making any positive step in life, at the very last stage, things will turn upside down.
Should I give up or hold on and die?
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-Who does God, who is love, allow the wicked to prosper and His children to suffer?
Years ago, I was born to a Muslim family. My father named me ... after a white missionary engineer who led him to Christ. He was later assassinated by his family because it was believed he was an abomination to the family and the community. Christianity in my community is a shame. I grew believing Christianity was the best thing that ever happened to me. I have been determined never to give up my faith for anything. I grew up and have been living as a destitute till date. For over 30 years, God has never had mercy on me.
I read about Joseph who suffered and later became governor.
I read about Ruth, I read about Jeremiah who was known as the weeping prophet, I read about Job, Peter, Paul, Naomi and even about Jesus Christ. With these characters, I believed struggling is always a part of the Christian journey.
This time, I find it difficult to understand why all these challenges happen to me. Recently, the Bible has given me assurance in time of distress.
Life has brought me to the junction of confusion. Life has made me feel like going back to the world. Apart from those who persevered in the Bible, all those who persevered in real life died suffering. Their children are suffering and dying. They went through a lot of disappointment, false accusation, persistent sickness, hunger and starvation, homelessness all for Christ. They fasted and prayed but suffering never ended.
Is this how we will suffer and die? I am living with 3 pastor children and a Muslim convert. We only comfort ourselves but have no hope of survival. We were many, dying one after another at almost all below 40 years till just 4 left. Presently we have been going for days without food. I have not taken a bath for 3 days. Yet my God is alive, working everything for my God.
We have suffered from a lot of near-success disappointment. Each time we are close to making any positive step in life, at the very last stage, things will turn upside down.
Should I give up or hold on and die?
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