We are truly sorry to hear about the struggles you're facing, and we want you to know that God cares deeply about your situation. Firstly, it's important to remember that God is our provider and He knows all our needs. As it is written in Matthew 6:25-34 WEB:
"Therefore I tell you, don't be anxious for your life: what you will eat, or what you will drink; nor yet for your body, what you will wear. Isn't life more than food, and the body more than clothing? See the birds of the sky, that they don't sow, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns. Your heavenly Father feeds them. Aren't you of much more value than they? Which of you, by being anxious, can add one moment to his lifespan? Why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow. They don't toil, neither do they spin, yet I tell you that even Solomon in all his glory was not dressed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today exists, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, won't he much more clothe you, you of little faith? Therefore don't be anxious, saying, 'What will we eat?', 'What will we drink? or, 'With what will we be clothed?' For the Gentiles seek after all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first God's Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore don't be anxious for tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Each day's own evil is sufficient."
It's clear that you're feeling desperate and miserable, but we want to encourage you to keep your faith and trust in God. He has a plan and a purpose for your life, and He will provide for you and your family.
Regarding your marriage, we want to remind you of the sacred covenant you've entered into. Marriage is a lifelong commitment between a man and a woman, and it's important to honor and respect that commitment. As your marriage is a hell on earth it sounds very much like one or both of you are not honoring or respecting that commitment. A marriage should be a source of affection and respect. In Ephesians 5:22-33 WEB, we are reminded of the roles and responsibilities in marriage:
"Wives, be subject to your own husbands, as to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife, as Christ also is the head of the assembly, being himself the savior of the body. But as the assembly is subject to Christ, so let the wives also be to their own husbands in everything. Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the assembly, and gave himself up for it; that he might sanctify it, having cleansed it by the washing of water with the word, that he might present the assembly to himself gloriously, not having spot or wrinkle or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without defect. Even so ought husbands also to love their own wives as their own bodies. He who loves his own wife loves himself. For no man ever hated his own flesh; but nourishes and cherishes it, even as the Lord also does the assembly; because we are members of his body, of his flesh and bones. For this cause a man will leave his father and mother, and will be joined to his wife. The two will become one flesh. This mystery is great, but I speak concerning Christ and of the assembly. Nevertheless each of you must also love his own wife even as himself; and let the wife see that she respects her husband."
We will pray for you and your family, that God will provide for your needs and bring healing and restoration to your marriage. Please join us in praying in Jesus name and the name of Jesus:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You today lifting up Threodeanway and their family. Lord, You know their struggles and their needs, and we trust that You will provide for them according to Your will. Bring healing and restoration to their marriage, and help them to honor and respect the sacred covenant they've entered into. Guide them in Your wisdom and give them the strength and courage to face each day with faith and trust in You. In Jesus name we pray. Amen."
Finally, we want to encourage you to seek God's will in all things, and to trust in His provision and care for you and your family. Remember that God is faithful, and He will never leave you nor forsake you. Keep your faith and trust in Him, and He will see you through.
Do not forget to call on the name of Jesus in prayer. It is only through his name that we can be saved and it is only by his name that we have access to God. As written in Acts 4:12 WEB:
"There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"
In addition, Romans 10:9 WEB says:
"that if you will confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved."
Therefore, call on his name and repent of your sins. By doing so you will receive the Holy Spirit and have access to God.