sharonann
Disciple of Prayer
All my life I have turned to God and Jesus Christ my Savior first with thanks and praise for what He has given me then for the strength and courage to face this life. He has always been there, but I now find myself lost and feeling abandoned. In the past five years I went through a horrible divorce where I lost everything (although I found my soul that I hadn't known my husband had taken). I have struggled to hold onto a home that is in foreclosure; I am on social security disability but raised hunting labs (they have been part of my life for 30 years). I gave God praise and thanks every morning at sunrise when I went down to the Barn to air them and play for an hour before their breakfast - the sunrises are beautiful where I live; I praised Him for the pure joy they brought to a sometimes very sad life. I praised Him at night when I saw the sky full of stars, a shining moon.
On December 27 I swerved to miss a dog I was trying to rescue and rolled my SUV; I had cancelled my collision insurance to save a few bucks a year and a half ago...it will take $7,000 to fix it; then on January 7 an eight-year-old barn caught fire (a freak outlet failure is what I was told) burnt to the ground, killing 10 dogs (2 rescues). It has wiped out my entire line - dogs ranged in age from 1 to 14 and I had owned all of my dogs since they were born. I have curled up in a ball for the past five months and don't know how to pray for the first time in my life - I am afraid if my Father doesn't lift me up from this pain I am not going to make it.
Please pray the prayers I am finding difficult to say...I am not sure He is listening to me...I have struggled since before I could walk with cruelties of this world but He has always been with me...I have soared even with a broken wing...but am now crushed and can't even ho very well.
Thank you for caring.
On December 27 I swerved to miss a dog I was trying to rescue and rolled my SUV; I had cancelled my collision insurance to save a few bucks a year and a half ago...it will take $7,000 to fix it; then on January 7 an eight-year-old barn caught fire (a freak outlet failure is what I was told) burnt to the ground, killing 10 dogs (2 rescues). It has wiped out my entire line - dogs ranged in age from 1 to 14 and I had owned all of my dogs since they were born. I have curled up in a ball for the past five months and don't know how to pray for the first time in my life - I am afraid if my Father doesn't lift me up from this pain I am not going to make it.
Please pray the prayers I am finding difficult to say...I am not sure He is listening to me...I have struggled since before I could walk with cruelties of this world but He has always been with me...I have soared even with a broken wing...but am now crushed and can't even ho very well.
Thank you for caring.
