Bemenra
Humble Prayer Partner
I cannot explain what God is doing; it “seems” like he’s doing absolutely nothing. I am living in the shelter, and I hate it; however, I cannot find a place to live. The VA has offered to help me with various moving-in expenses, but I cannot find a place to live that meets their requirements. I am waiting patiently to learn about my fate at the school, but I have not heard anything in over a week. I was told 3 to 4 months of salary; I had requested for it to be paid in advance. I have not heard anything. Today, my basketball team begins their playoffs. I worked so hard with that team and I miss them terribly. Life is so unfair sometimes. I believe they can win the championship. I hope that they do. Yesterday, I sat in a parking lot all day long and I only did one DoorDash order. I had no strength today, I have sat in the same spot for about six hours; I have no strength to go do DoorDash, though I need to, badly. I miss my wife and children deeply and I feel hopeless at times. The holiday season makes it even harder to deal with. I spend a lot of time in prayer and looking at scripture and crying out to God with my pain and requesting his divine help. I have prayed with Faith that mountains would be moved and so far nothing has happened. I moved to Alaska with nothing, walking by faith and not by sight. I thought God gave me the job at the school and coaching, but it seems like I was wrong there as well. I love God, Jesus, the Spirit with all my heart. I need God to help me. As the Psalmist exclaimed in Psalm 22, God why are you so far from helping me …. please God, send your angels to camp around me and help me. I feel like I am in a roller coaster that has been left hanging upside down. I am all buckled in and my hands are dangling and my only hope is to wait for the rescuers. Lord, help me! I am not afraid to die, but I would prefer to live and serve God more. Please God pleas and prayers.