Bemenra
Humble Prayer Partner
First, thank you for your prayers and kind words. I am truly grateful.
I believe in prayer (James 5:16). It’s the reason I keep coming back here. Sometimes, I fear I am bothering others but I need your prayers so bad that I keep asking.
In case you don’t know, my wife (Kai) left me. I had moved from Alaska back home to Texa to set up our new home. I had my boys. She had my daughter; they were going to visit family overseas.
My wife and a “sister-in-Christ” flew to Texas and took the boys. I have not seen any of my children since September 2022. I have been in almost unbearable pain since then. Many times, I begged God to take me in my sleep.
I had sent 100+ resumes to Alaska begging God to get me back there. I mean every job from managing an assistant living, chaplain work, home cleaning, etc. I did interviews, completed every step required - nothing.
Finally, on July 28, 2024, I was offered a job teaching 8th grade science and coaching basketball. School began August 15 and my temporary job in San Francisco ended August 13 so the company supplied my free ticket ($818).
I arrived last Tuesday morning (1:00 am). I’ve been living in a shelter. It’s decent but tough. I feel like a “loser”. I have a rental car but money is running out. Hotels are $400-500 and rental cars $120-150 if available.
I am in the middle of HR onboarding and working. Tomorrow I have 2 HR meetings. I’m hoping I will be able to work soon after. The school has already lowered my salary $1k.
I am exhausted. I had a car, I thought but I found out the company will not finance a car with 238k miles. I figured God did not want me in that car.
I have been really down…. I try and keep my spirits up by prayer, watching the sunset. I’ve read the Psalms 13x since last October. I am just weak. Very weak.
I can’t believe I am alive. I “think” my children are within 20 miles but there is nothing I can do. I plead with God for wisdom . I plead with God for a softened heart for my wife. Every Sunday, I hope a sermon will be preached that will cause her to rethink what she has done.
A church in CA liked me. I contacted them deciding to just go there, the pain here so great. They decided not to hire anyone so that door is shut. It’s almost like God is saying “I have put you there. You’re not going to Texas or California….”
I love the rain (Acts 14:17). Anything I see rain I quote that passage; it gives me strength. It’s rained a lot since I’ve been here.
I often imagine, my wife contacting me wanting to reconcile …. I would have my family back, a vehicle and a home…. Weeping may endure for a night but joy comes in the morning (Ps 30:5).
I’m in so much pain… prayers please.
I believe in prayer (James 5:16). It’s the reason I keep coming back here. Sometimes, I fear I am bothering others but I need your prayers so bad that I keep asking.
In case you don’t know, my wife (Kai) left me. I had moved from Alaska back home to Texa to set up our new home. I had my boys. She had my daughter; they were going to visit family overseas.
My wife and a “sister-in-Christ” flew to Texas and took the boys. I have not seen any of my children since September 2022. I have been in almost unbearable pain since then. Many times, I begged God to take me in my sleep.
I had sent 100+ resumes to Alaska begging God to get me back there. I mean every job from managing an assistant living, chaplain work, home cleaning, etc. I did interviews, completed every step required - nothing.
Finally, on July 28, 2024, I was offered a job teaching 8th grade science and coaching basketball. School began August 15 and my temporary job in San Francisco ended August 13 so the company supplied my free ticket ($818).
I arrived last Tuesday morning (1:00 am). I’ve been living in a shelter. It’s decent but tough. I feel like a “loser”. I have a rental car but money is running out. Hotels are $400-500 and rental cars $120-150 if available.
I am in the middle of HR onboarding and working. Tomorrow I have 2 HR meetings. I’m hoping I will be able to work soon after. The school has already lowered my salary $1k.
I am exhausted. I had a car, I thought but I found out the company will not finance a car with 238k miles. I figured God did not want me in that car.
I have been really down…. I try and keep my spirits up by prayer, watching the sunset. I’ve read the Psalms 13x since last October. I am just weak. Very weak.
I can’t believe I am alive. I “think” my children are within 20 miles but there is nothing I can do. I plead with God for wisdom . I plead with God for a softened heart for my wife. Every Sunday, I hope a sermon will be preached that will cause her to rethink what she has done.
A church in CA liked me. I contacted them deciding to just go there, the pain here so great. They decided not to hire anyone so that door is shut. It’s almost like God is saying “I have put you there. You’re not going to Texas or California….”
I love the rain (Acts 14:17). Anything I see rain I quote that passage; it gives me strength. It’s rained a lot since I’ve been here.
I often imagine, my wife contacting me wanting to reconcile …. I would have my family back, a vehicle and a home…. Weeping may endure for a night but joy comes in the morning (Ps 30:5).
I’m in so much pain… prayers please.