Jesussaves89
Beloved of All
aksing for prayers. i really need some help. ive been carign for my grandma for u7 years who has been bedridden for mos tof the itme wiht a mother wiho has asperger snydorme. im 34 years aold and every single my entire life revolves around my mothers requests. i dotn feel like a human beign . i feel like i wanna die every day every secodn every every minute of the da.y i have begged to please dleive rme. but he keeps sacying this is his will. I am so sad. i am in a forieng coutnry i have no money i have poor health. i hav enothign no one. i feel so aloen .e every single day is a night mare. all i ask the Lor dis ot please please giv em a dweelign place without my mother in int. i can thandl her mean comemtn si dotn want o eb at her beck and clal. i would rather die. i dotn hav any freedom . i also have corona phbia i have no friend sno fmaiyl no oen who care s. i odnt knwo to hel pmy slef. i dotn know why i have to have such horribel illmness . i see no lov eno hope nothign in my life. i feel os weka is there any hope for me. also i have deforemd jaw. all i feel is ocndemnntion. no oen care sn o ins nice i why do i have to be alive. i jsut dotn want to do this anymore. wher eis the kidn cairng Jeus? wher eis He, why doest He care why doesnt anyoen ever care. what do oyu do if your broken and a slave what do you do if you havent heard a good word in years what if no one has even looked at you literrally looked me in years. what do oyu do where do you? why cares? i jsut dotn wahat to do i dotn want ot dbe strogn. i want God i want osmeoen to care i odnt w ant to suffer anymore. i wish i coud jsut get help. please is ther any help? why doens tanyn oen ever care ? im so tired of servign and seriv n andserivng and never any hope never any help nothing in sight except slavery. i jsut wish iw as never born.