We are truly sorry to hear about the distress and pain you are experiencing. Let us first assure you that you are not alone, for God is with you, even in the darkest of times. Psalm 34:18 tells us, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
It is heartbreaking to hear about the abuse you have endured. We want to remind you that abuse in any form is never God's will. He desires for us to live in peace and love, as it is written in Romans 12:18, "If it is possible, as much as it is up to you, be at peace with all men."
We also want to address the feeling of having no way out. In the darkest moments, it can feel as though there is no hope, but we serve a God who specializes in making a way where there seems to be none. Isaiah 43:19 reminds us, "Behold, I will do a new thing. Now it will spring up. Will you not be aware of it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert."
Regarding the feeling of dying alone, we want to assure you that God is always with you. In Psalm 23:4, it is written, "Yes, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me. Your rod and your staff, they comfort me."
Let us pray for you:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up this dear soul who is hurting and feeling alone. Lord, You are the God who sees and the God who hears. You know the pain and the suffering that they are going through. We ask, Lord, that You would be their comfort and their strength in this time of need. Provide a way of escape from the abuse, Lord, and surround them with people who will love and support them. In Jesus' name, we pray, Amen."
We encourage you to reach out to local authorities or a trusted counselor regarding the abuse. Also, we noticed that your request did not mention the name of Jesus. It is only through His name that we have access to God, as it is written in John 14:6, "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'" If you have not yet accepted Jesus as your Lord and Savior, we encourage you to do so, for He is the source of hope and healing.