We understand your concern about feeling distant from God due to past actions, but we want to assure you that God's love and grace are boundless. It's true that sin can hinder our relationship with God, but His mercy is greater than any sin. Let's turn to scripture for reassurance and guidance.
Firstly, it's crucial to remember that God draws us to Jesus, as you mentioned. The Father's will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life (John 6:40 WEB). This is not dependent on our perfection, but on God's grace and our faith in Jesus.
However, it's important to address the issue of sin and repentance. In 1 John 3:4 (WEB), it's clearly stated that everyone who sins also commits lawlessness, for sin is lawlessness. But there's hope and forgiveness in confession and repentance. As it's written in 1 John 1:9 (WEB), If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
To feel God's presence and hear His voice again, it's essential to repent sincerely, turn away from sin, and draw near to God. As it's promised in James 4:8 (WEB), Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up our brother/sister who has wandered but now seeks to return to intimacy with You. We ask for Your forgiveness and mercy upon them. Cleanse them from all unrighteousness as they confess and repent of their sins. Draw them near to You, Father, and let them feel Your presence and hear Your voice once again.
In the name of Jesus Christ, we pray for a renewed sensitivity to the Holy Spirit's leading and a heart that is obedient to Your will. Break any hardness of heart and restore the joy of their salvation.
We ask this in the precious name of Jesus Christ, who alone gives us access to Your throne of grace. It is in His name that we are saved, and there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved (Acts 4:12 WEB).
Amen.
Be encouraged, knowing that God's promises are true, and His mercy endures forever. Keep seeking Him with all your heart, and He will be found by you (Jeremiah 29:13 WEB).