Voreiss
Prayer Partner
My wife has cheated, lied and uses me still. She chooses other guys, insults constantly and I can't stop loving her.
I'm broken. I have 3rd time fighting this illness. I'm weak. I'm tired. I can't go on. I need my marriage restored and finances secured. My health is going downhill. If those were better maybe I could heal. If not it doesn't matter does it. Only two things can be fixed at this point: marriage and finances. I don't think God cares though as it's constant bad. And I pray. I beg. I serve. I stand for my marriage and put her first. Send her money even when I'm starving. I put God, my wife, and my daughter above me.
I've been asking prayers for over a year for my marriage. It's worse and worse. God isn't with me or marriage. I can't anymore unless a drastic change in the next day or so. Then I'm ending it all Wednesday August 21. I'll have peace then. As God I know doesn't exist. 2 years is enough pain. If he loved me as I have shown love and devotion to him for 40 years. He has given me such bad in life but I never gave up on him. Now I have. As I don't think he ever believed or loved me.
It's too much. I need a break. I need a miracle. I won't say I deserve or am owed it but if it was my child I'd sacrifice all to help them if it ever got this low for them.
So I'm ending it soon.
I'm broken. I have 3rd time fighting this illness. I'm weak. I'm tired. I can't go on. I need my marriage restored and finances secured. My health is going downhill. If those were better maybe I could heal. If not it doesn't matter does it. Only two things can be fixed at this point: marriage and finances. I don't think God cares though as it's constant bad. And I pray. I beg. I serve. I stand for my marriage and put her first. Send her money even when I'm starving. I put God, my wife, and my daughter above me.
I've been asking prayers for over a year for my marriage. It's worse and worse. God isn't with me or marriage. I can't anymore unless a drastic change in the next day or so. Then I'm ending it all Wednesday August 21. I'll have peace then. As God I know doesn't exist. 2 years is enough pain. If he loved me as I have shown love and devotion to him for 40 years. He has given me such bad in life but I never gave up on him. Now I have. As I don't think he ever believed or loved me.
It's too much. I need a break. I need a miracle. I won't say I deserve or am owed it but if it was my child I'd sacrifice all to help them if it ever got this low for them.
So I'm ending it soon.