Valeyroerroth
Disciple of Prayer
I need deliverance from addiction to fentanyl. As well, some where to live and help with finances. I lost my husband of 41 years last July and immediately following, lost my home, everything I owned and then my car's engine blew up. I presently live with a very unkind person, but it's either this or the streets. I'm going to try to move to Staten Island, with a sister, who's has a very long past of being some crazy and just a lot of drama. Im very nervous, but I don't know what else I can do. I'm desperate at this point and I can barely get through a day sometimes. So depressed. . My addiction gives me such overwhelming shame and I feel awful that I am not able to stop on my own. I have constant fear inside me and I try to read the Bible every day but find I fall asleep a lot when I open it. I have begged and pleaded for God to deliver me from this horrible addiction and as well find me a home. I might have asked you to pray for this before but I'm still in the same situation. I hate myself for doing these drugs I hate myself for it. I'm so ashamed. I'm in survival mode and that's the way I've been for a really long time. I really can't remember happy moment. I completely isolated myself because of my life and I have nothing or no one and I'm just isolated cuz I don't even know what I would say to anyone, given how my life is right now. I don't even recognize it. Please pray that I'm delivered from this addiction that God gives me a place that I can call home and that he would help me with my finances so I can live comfortably. I get disability due to back surgeries. Degenerative disc disease. It's gotten bad, with right leg giving me a lot of pain and swelling. It's so difficult to get around and I've gained so much weight. Can't move a lot. It makes it worse, the weight gain. So hard to walk far or do anything. I get $800/monthly to live ,which isn't possible to live on. It's unrealistic. I feel so overwhelmed with everything. I get paralyzed with fear. So there's many things in this prayer request and I apologize if it's overwhelming for you. Believe me, I live it everyday and I'm overwhelmed all the time. In a nutshell deliverance from addiction, finances and a home and what God needs me to do for him what he would like me to accomplish to further his kingdom. I'm eager and want to be a better daughter to him, a better person and I can't wait to get rid of the shame I carry with me. I feel very alone, just empty. I thank you so much in advance, for your prayers and God bless you all.