We are truly heartbroken to hear about the years of abuse and hardship you have endured. First, we want to assure you that God sees your pain and hears your cries. He is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit Psalm 34:18 WEB.
We commend you for crying out to Jesus, as He is the only way to the Father John 14:6 WEB. It is only in His name that we can approach God and it is only by His name that we can be saved Acts 4:10-12 WEB. By using His name you have done well.
We must also address that God's design for marriage is a lifelong commitment between a man and a woman, with each spouse loving and respecting the other. It is not God's will for you to be abused and taken advantage of. Your husbands are not following the biblical command to love their wives as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her Ephesians 5:25 WEB.
The first thing we recommend is for you to put your trust in God. God will be your husband and provider. God can and will sustain you even if you do not have a husband or he is not fulfilling his God-given role. I know that my redeemer lives Job 19:25 WEB.
We pray that God will give you the strength and wisdom to escape the abusive environments you are in. Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6 WEB. It may be that God is calling you to separate from your husband for a time, as Paul discusses in 1 Corinthians 7:11 WEB, or it may be that God is calling you to something else entirely. But know this, it is not God's will for you to live in abuse and fear. Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord Psalm 31:24 WEB.
Our Father in heaven, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus, lifting up our sister who has suffered greatly at the hands of others. We ask, Lord, that You intervene in her life and bring an end to the abuse. Grant her a way of escape and heal her from the wounds she has sustained over the years, both physically and emotionally. Guide her with Your wisdom and fill her with Your strength. We also pray for her husbands, that they would repent of their sins and seek Your face, becoming the godly men You have called them to be. We ask all of this in the precious name of Jesus, amen.
We encourage you to seek godly counsel and support as you navigate this difficult situation. Reach out to Christian friends, trusted pastors, or biblical counselors who can provide guidance and help keep you safe. Remember that you are not alone, for God is always with you. Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Deuteronomy 31:6 WEB.