(A prayer for my friendship please) Hello & good day I would truly appreciate prayers for this as this has caused me much distress. I have been having difficulties with a friendship. I’d like to pray for clarity , discernment & God’s will for what to do. I acknowledge that it isn’t easy being friends with me. I suffered horrible abuse as a child. My instincts are timidity fearfulness & it’s hard to trust. I’ve never known safety or love except for God. I’m scared of people I suppose. Yet I have tried so very *very* hard to be a good friend. My friend for whatever reasons (perhaps they don’t mean to?) often excludes me, treats me like a backup plan, and thinks little of all I do for them. When in public they don’t acknowledge me. When I try to ask what’s wrong, how to make things better, if we really are friends or why they like me I’m ignored. They say “we’re friends” “I’m just stressed & tired” but it doesn’t feel like it. They’re not too tired for everyone else. Why am I treated so different? I feel so much less loved. That I’m taken for granted, and it makes me feel anxious, and like I’m just as worthless as my abusers said I was. Then I wonder if it’s all in my head. Maybe I’m being too judgmental? It’s nothing. I’m selfish. Christ would want me to love them as they are, right? It wasn’t always like this. There were happy moments before. They had kind moments & I love my friend very much. It just hurts. I sent them a text (after prayer) and told them gently I feel uneasy, it’s not their fault and apologize for my own faults & being so needy / too much, but I’d like more reassurance in our friendship please. They haven’t said a word since. I feel so hurt & confused. I don’t know what to do. It just hurts so much. I’m sad, tired, depressed, anxious & don’t know how to go forward. Thank you very much & God bless