HBPastorToBe
Servant of All
Good morning to all. My ex wife is considering or should I say planning to relocate close to the kids and I and live with her brother. I believe this would be a great choice on her part for more reasons than one. She planned to move done here so many times in the past 5 years. I really believe she should. Not for us to get back together, for her. Every time she has planned to move something tends to hold her back. Please God, let that not be the case this time around. Remove anyone and anything that would attempt to keep her where she is. I know this is hard for her because its where she has been born and raised for the past 38 years. I can't lie the thought of reconciliation has crossed my mind. But I don't want my personal feelings to get in the way of anything either. I just desire for our kids to have both parents around all the time. For the past few months I've had the kids, and every moment with them has been a blessing to me. I don't want them to leave me. But Right now in my current living arrangements I feel it would be best that their mother have them until I get right and permanent living arrangements for them. I've been praying for help with this for awhile now. So I believe whatever happens to be God's will and not my own. So Lord please guide her steps and help her make the decision you desire her to make. My emotions are going in over drive right now. Work for me is slow, and I stress over finding a permanent job. Too me the timing couldn't be any better for her to come down. My feelings for my ex wife never truly left. They have just been a little dormant. God knows how I feel about all of this. I joined this website 5 years ago after leaving my family and I've been praying for us to be as one again and it seems so close but yet so far. I don't want to ruin anything. In all I want Gods will to be done, not my own. We both have tried outside relationships that didn't go well. My pain has been documented sense I joined prayerrequest.com. I always come here for much needed unbiased prayer. This site has helped me so much during my separation from wife and kids and I know you all have played your part. Hopefully I will have a testimony to give soon. Because even though things are not going as I think, I know its going as God intended. So Thank You all and keep my family, Houston Beard III, Ju'lecia Beard, Julie Beard and myself Houston Beard in your prayers. Have a blessed day!