A long vent

[Erierain]

I'm sorry to make such a long post. I am just so confused. I always believed I am a pagan, believed in universe and science but I kind of feel like switching to Christianity. I am not sure yet. I just feel so sinful. I feel guilty of gluttony for being chubby. I have went through mental anorexia. It was terrible. I cried over every single bite. Especially meat. I feel horrible when I eat meat. After all aren't animals also God's creations? They are so adorable. I think it's horrible when people think they are the "masters" of their "pets" I have a 3 year old cat and I have never seen myself as her master. I love like she was my baby. I only feel affection towards her. She is so adorable and tiny. I love to see her thrive and play. Since she is an outdoors cat I love whenever she comes home for food or to cuddle. But we just got a new puppy and my mom keeps on insisting our puppy needs to know who the master is and yells at her and gently slaps her snout. But I can't do it. It feels wrong. I just want to love all animals. Sure I am scared of bugs and spiders. But I admit. I am a goth. Lots of people see me as a "satanist" but the whole idea of being goth is to find beauty in the dark things. For example Hollywood has really demonized bats. But I love bats. They are adorable little babies. Same goes to snakes, rats and crows. I think they are adorable. All of them. I don't understand why I get weird looks from Christian grandmas. I am full of love. I feel bad for scaring them. I just really like to dress like a vampire. It makes me feel free and happy. I've met my boyfriend's parents today. They said I'm kind and pretty. That made me so happy. I prayed here once before but I have lost my account info. I am not pregnant and I can happily finish high school. I can't wait to go to university and become a detective. I want to bring all murderes to justice. However history and math keep tripping me over. I might have discalculia which would explain my poor math results. I am very good in chemistry but i get my numbers mixed up. I am also very good at languages and want to learn them all. I hate history. It feels so useless. This might be my main point of this post. I dont understand religious wars. Didn't both sides believe in the same God? After all aren't Christians supposed to be full of love and acceptance? Why did they fight so much. Why did it feel the churches were greedy... this post is full of respect of course. I'm just confused and I'm sorry if it's offensive. I don't mean it to be. Honest. I am a girl scout. Well I was, now I am a ranger and I lead the girl scouts another thing that confuses me. Why is wrong to be a part of the LGBTQ? I am a bisexual girl and I can guarantee it's not out of lust. I could never have that kind of relationship. Sure I do make love to my boyfriend. We are still teens, freshly 18. But it's purely out of love. That guy has the same humor as me. He makes me feel secure and forget the fact that I am chubby. He makes me so happy. I used to date a girl too. But I was too scared of relationships that I had to end it. I hurt her alot but now she has a new girlfriend and is happy. That makes me happy. Since I see the love. I'm sorry for making such a long post. I just needed someone to tell this to without feeling any shame and I didn't want to overwhelm my therapist. That sounds selfish. I'm so sorry.

 

[Articles]

We are glad you reached out and we want to address the various issues you raised. Firstly, we want to assure you that it is normal to feel confused and have questions when considering a switch from pagan beliefs to Christianity. God's word says, Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart; and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

First, let's address the feelings of guilt and sinfulness you mentioned. It's important to understand that everyone has sinned and fallen short of God's glory. We all need forgiveness, which is only available through faith in Jesus Christ. The Bible says, for all have sinned, and fall short of the glory of God; being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus.
We can clearly see that you have a sensitive conscience and feel guilty for not living right. The Word also says, Now the Spirit expressly says that in later times some will depart from the faith, giving heed to deceiving spirits and doctrines of demons, speaking lies in hypocrisy, having their own conscience seared with a hot iron,. We want to commend you for your sensitivity and urge you to continue this desire to live right. It is only by the name of Jesus that we can come to God the Father and it is only by the name of Jesus that we can be saved. That is why prayer should always be done in Jesus' name.

Regarding your feelings about animals, it's true that God created all creatures and cares for them. However, the Bible also gives humans a special place and responsibility. God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the birds of the sky, and over the livestock, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creeps on the earth.

This doesn't mean we should abuse or mistreat animals, but rather that we should be good stewards of God's creation. It's commendable that you have such affection for your cat and the new puppy. Regarding your discomfort with disciplining the puppy, it's important to note that training animals is a part of responsible pet ownership. This doesn't mean harsh treatment, but rather setting boundaries and teaching obedience. The Bible says, A righteous man respects the life of his animal, but the tender mercies of the wicked are cruel.

About your goth lifestyle, it's important to understand that finding beauty in dark things can be misleading. The Bible warns against being conformed to the world and its standards. Instead, we should be transformed by the renewing of our minds, so that we may prove what is the good, well-pleasing, and perfect will of God.

Now, let's address the topic of relationships. It's clear that you have a deep capacity for love and affection, but it's crucial to align these feelings with biblical principles. The Bible teaches that sexual intimacy is a gift from God designed for marriage between a man and a woman. Any sexual activity outside of this context is considered sinful. The Bible says, Marriage is to be held in honor among all, and the bed undefiled: but God will judge the sexually immoral and adulterers. We must admonish you that you are living in fornication. You must marry to be right with God. The word also says, But because of sexual immorality, let each man have his own wife, and let each woman have her own husband. You also mentioned being bisexual. It's important to understand that God's design for sexuality is within the context of marriage between a man and a woman. Any deviation from this is considered sinful. The word says, Or don't you know that the unrighteous will not inherit the Kingdom of God? Don't be deceived. Neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor male prostitutes, nor homosexuals, nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor slanderers, nor extortioners, will inherit the Kingdom of God.

Regarding religious wars and the history of the church, it's true that there have been dark periods where people acted contrary to the teachings of Christ. However, it's important to remember that these actions do not reflect the true spirit of Christianity, which is one of love, forgiveness, and grace. The Word says, A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another. Just as I have loved you, you also love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another.

Lastly, we want to encourage you in your academic pursuits. It's commendable that you want to bring murderers to justice. Remember that God has a special place in His heart for those who seek justice. The Bible says, Learn to do well; seek judgment, relieve the oppressed, judge the fatherless, and plead for the widow.

Let's pray together:

Dear Heavenly Father,

We come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up the one who submitted this request. We ask for Your guidance and wisdom as they navigate their journey of faith. Help them to understand Your truths and align their life with Your will.

Father, we pray for forgiveness for any sins committed and ask for Your healing touch on their life. We pray for guidance in their relationships, that they may honor You in all their interactions.

We also pray for wisdom and understanding in their studies, that they may excel and use their knowledge to bring justice to the world.

In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.

 

[hostadmin]

Hey there,

We just wanted to chime in and say, we hear you. It's okay to feel confused and overwhelmed, especially when you're trying to navigate a new path like this. Remember, even the smallest steps towards understanding can be a big deal.

We loved hearing about your love for animals. It's amazing how much affection and care you have for them. It's clear you have a big heart, and that's something to be proud of. As for the puppy, maybe try to find a balance between setting boundaries and showing love. It's all about finding that sweet spot, right?

We also wanted to say, it's great that you're exploring your identity and what that means for you. It's okay to take your time with that, and it's okay to ask for help along the way. We're here for you, no matter what.

As for the religious stuff, we get it. It can be tough to understand why people fight over things that should bring them together. But remember, even in the darkest times, there are always people working towards the light. You can be one of those people.

Keep doing you. Keep asking questions, keep learning, keep loving. That's what matters most.

Let's pray together, yeah?

Dear Lord,
We're here, standing with [OP's name] today. We ask for your guidance, your wisdom, and your love. Help them to find their way, to understand your truths, and to feel your love every step of the way.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.

 

[The Encourager]

May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. Thank You Jesus!!!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You. Thank You. Thank You. God Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.

God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleansed me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the grace and knowledge of Christ Jesus. Transform and renew my mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God solution focused heart, mind, spirit, and attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so. Prayer written by Encourager Linda Flagg, M.A., Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach.

 

[I am She]

Praying for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Cinu]

Lord, we pray for this prayer and family for blessings healing and salvation. Heal and bless. May their lives be a praise and glory unto thee.
Come to the Lord's holy presence. Seek him with all your heart. Cling to his Word and meditate on it moment by moment by positive thoughts and joy in the heart (James 1:2-4), knowing that the Lord is good and to him be all the praise. Seek first God's kingdom and his righteousness (Matthew 6:33). Even though life may feel hard, the Lord's hand will be on you, and he will answer in his time. I am praying for you. Amen.

Some resources that might help.

Needs: - But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19(KJV)

Salvation: - So they said "Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and you will be saved you and your household." Acts 16:31(NKJV)

Healing: - But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His stripes we are healed. Isaiah 53:5(NKJV)

Fulfillment by the Holy Spirit: - Then he answered and spake unto me, saying, This is the word of the LORD unto Zerubbabel, saying, Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit, saith the LORD of hosts. Zechariah 4:6(KJV)

Persecutions: - But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you, Bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you. Luke 6:27-28(KJV)

Help in Prayer

Dwelling and Thriving in God’s grace where everything happens for good (Romans 8:28)

Pray that the Lord may open the eyes of the nations affected by coronavirus (Specifically forces against God’s people)


sermons

Be a Prayer Warrior: “Praying for others”

 

[hostadmin]

We continue to lift you up in our prayers, especially as you navigate your spiritual journey and consider switching to Christianity. We are honored that you have allowed us to pray with you and we want to encourage you to keep seeking God with all your heart.

If you have felt a sense of peace or resolution regarding your feelings of sinfulness, your struggles with your body image and eating, or your relationships with animals and others, we would love to hear about it. Please share a praise report to encourage us all.

If you are still feeling confused or burdened, we want you to know that we are still here for you. Please don't hesitate to share your request again so we can continue to pray with you and support you in your journey.

We also want to lift up your studies and future career path. Pray for clarity and guidance in the direction. We ask God for wisdom and energy for you as you tackle history and math. We also want you to consider praising Jesus in the beauty of languages, which is a blessing you speak of having. We pray the Holy Spirit will guide in all truth.

We pray that you continue to experience love and acceptance in all your relationships, and that God will guide your understanding of sexuality and identity in accordance with His will. We want our prayers on your relationships to be focused on love and pure joy.

And lastly, let us continue to stand with you in prayer as you pursue your dreams. Pray for diligence and curiosity. May your path be clear and may you love others and demonstrate the light of our Lord Jesus Christ.

We are blessed to have you in our midst and we are blessed to call you a prayer partner and a friend. God bless you as you continue to seek Him.