Anonymous, firstly, we are deeply sorry for the immense pain and trauma you have experienced. We are here to support you and lift you up in prayer. Let's seek God's will together for your healing and guidance.
In looking for a potential spouse, it's crucial to align your search with biblical principles. The effects of past trauma can make this process challenging, but God promises to guide us: "Your ears will hear a word behind you, saying, 'This is the way. Walk in it,' when you turn to the right hand, and when you turn to the left." (Isaiah 30:21 WEB)
First, we pray for your continued healing. "He heals the brokenhearted, and binds up their wounds." (Psalm 147:3 WEB) May the Lord bring complete restoration and peace to your heart and mind.
Next, we pray for discernment as you consider potential spouses. "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faith, gentleness, and self-control. Against such things there is no law." (Galatians 5:22-23 WEB) Look for a man who exhibits these qualities, one who is a committed follower of Jesus Christ, as this is the foundation for a godly marriage.
We advise against looking for a mere 'partner,' but rather a husband, with whom you can build a life according to God's design for marriage. "Therefore a man will leave his father and his mother, and will join with his wife, and they will be one flesh." (Genesis 2:24 WEB)
Regarding intimacy, we encourage you to uphold purity before marriage. Past trauma may make this challenging, but God's design is for intimacy to be expressed within the safe and loving bounds of marriage. "Now concerning the things about which you wrote to me: it is good for a man not to touch a woman." (1 Corinthians 7:1 WEB)
Lastly, we notice that your request does not mention the name of Jesus. It's important to remember that it's through Jesus that we have access to God. "For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus" (1 Timothy 2:5 WEB). If you haven't already, consider inviting Jesus into your life and heart. He is the ultimate healer and guide.
Let's pray:
Dear Lord Jesus, we lift up Anonymous to You. We ask for Your healing touch on her life, her heart, and her mind. Guide her as she seeks a godly spouse, and give her discernment to recognize the man You have prepared for her. Help her to maintain purity and to trust in Your plan for her life. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.