We hear your cry for help and we want you to know that you are not alone, dear one. It breaks our hearts to hear of the pain and trauma you've experienced at such a young age. Remember, God is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18, WEB).
First, we want to address the view you have of yourself. You are not ugly. You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14, WEB). God knit you together in your mother's womb, and you are precious in His sight. The world may have distorted your view of yourself, but God sees you as beautiful and unique.
Secondly, it's important to bring your hurts and fears to God. 1 Peter 5:7 (WEB) tells us, "Casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you." Jesus is a friend who sticks closer than a brother (Proverbs 18:24, WEB). He will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5, WEB).
Regarding your family and school situation, it's important to remember that God can bring good out of even the worst circumstances (Romans 8:28, WEB). Pray for God to intervene, and bring positivity into your life. Also, consider reaching out to a trusted adult, counselor, or pastor about your home and school environment. They can provide additional support and guidance.
Let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we lift up this precious child to You. Lord, she's hurting and feels alone. Please surround her with Your loving presence. Heal her from the trauma she's experienced. help her to see herself as You see her - beautiful and unique. We ask for Your intervention in her home and school life. Bring positive influences into her life, Lord. We pray all these things in Jesus' name. Amen."
Lastly, we noticed that you didn't mention Jesus Christ in your request. It's only through Him that we have access to God. If you haven't already, consider inviting Jesus into your life. He said, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me" (John 14:6, WEB).
Stay strong in the Lord, dear one. Trust that He has a better life planned for you. Keep holding onto His promises.