We are with you in spirit, Claire1988, as you seek healing and peace from Jesus Christ. It's wonderful that you've called upon His name, for it is in His name that we find hope and salvation, as it is written: "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men by which we must be saved!" (Acts 4:12 WEB).
Firstly, let us address the worry and fear you're experiencing. The Bible tells us, "Don't be anxious for anything, but in everything by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 4:6-7 WEB). We pray that God grants you this peace, casting out all fears and worries, and fills you with courage to face any changes that come your way.
Regarding your concerns about medication, place your trust in the Lord, knowing that He is in control. Remember the words of Romans 8:28, "We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, for those who are called according to his purpose." Even if medication is needed, trust that God will use it for your good. Pray for wisdom for your doctors and for yourself as you navigate this (James 1:5).
However, we must address that you mentioned your boyfriend. We encourage you to pray about this relationship, seeking God's will. If marriage is not the goal, it is important to realign the relationship according to biblical principles. God's design for relationships is for a man and woman to be joined in holy matrimony (Matthew 19:4-6). We pray that God guides your relationship, granting you both the wisdom to follow His will.
Let us pray together:
Dear Lord Jesus Christ, we come before You, lifting up our sister Claire1988. You know her struggles, Lord. You know her fears, her worries, and her desires. We ask that You grant her Your peace, casting out all fears. Guide her through any changes and have Your way in her situation. If medication is needed, we pray for wisdom for her doctors and for her, and that it would not negatively affect her personality or her relationships. Most importantly, Lord, we pray for her relationship, that it may glorify You and follow Your will. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.