Shalom/Peace everyone. It's gone 1am here in the UK. I went to sleep for about an hour and a half then Yahushua our Saviour awoke me and asked me to get up. He didn't say why but I can feel it's not an emergency so that's cool.
I am feeling weakened physically. Pain all over my body, I have arthritis so it's that but also bodily aches and pains of coughs and colds etc. My ears are both blocked and quite painful at times. I managed to get to the pharmacy today to get some olive oil drops so I hope that helps.
Also I need emotional healing. I am also on CBN prayer site still despite a person who has 3 alias trying to get me banned. The reason for this is telling the truth according to scripture and Holy Spirit Guidance. Worse still hardly anyone is sticking up for me by commenting the truth or any Christian solidarity on her vitrolic posts. She mocks and scoffs, falsely accuses slanders and says I'm unbiblical. All things which can be easily and quickly disproved. The worst example is a woman I befriended over a year ago as I saw by her posts she was in emotional spiritual and financial distress. So I had compassion on her as any real Christian would.
I have given her easily over a thousand pounds this last year. She used to say she loved me and that I was one of only a few genuine Christians on the site. I had to write to her personally the other night to ask why she had turned her back on me in my hour of need. She replied without even a hint of an apology saying she has her own problems. I have overcome a lot worse but I am fine now because I sook Yashaya's face with all my heart confessed repented kept His statues laws and commandments like our Messiah and the early church did. I am nothing special. Anyone can do this by reading the Bible and being a doer of it. once you have the Ruwach the Holy Spirit She dwells in you and makes it easier for you.
So I wrote back and pointed all this out to her but she still has not apologised or supported me in my hour of need. This is indeed breaking my heart as well as the silence by most of the rest with a couple of exceptions.
Not only is she being horrible to me a saint of the Most High but she is disrespecting and disobeying Him. So even though she has backstabbed me and refused to repented I am still caring fo rher and worried for the sake of her eternal soul. There is only heaven or hell and our Father cannot allow sinners into heaven. No matter how much He loves us all - How can He and why should He. It will just end up like this fallen world all over again.
The whole point of heaven is that it is for the pure dedicated believers who are saved by grace and appreciate it and don't abuse that grace and so loose their faith. They use this grace to obey the Torah as best they can. Knowing if we slip up a little His blood is able to cover our sins and blot them out and He will forgive us, according to scripture.
I am also slightly worried that the demons that used to oppress and terrorise me before Messiah healed me from schitzophrenia will return in this hour of weakness. I don't think this is too likely I can feel Christ's light and presence burning in my heart still but I just want to cover all bases.
Thanks so much for praying and hopefully understanding. i really feel I can be my true self here and not looked down on taken advantage of or mocked or called mad a witch a false prophet etc.
Yah bless you all to the uttermost and give you your true new hearts desires according to His own perfect will and timing. sister Michelle. every blessing.
I am feeling weakened physically. Pain all over my body, I have arthritis so it's that but also bodily aches and pains of coughs and colds etc. My ears are both blocked and quite painful at times. I managed to get to the pharmacy today to get some olive oil drops so I hope that helps.
Also I need emotional healing. I am also on CBN prayer site still despite a person who has 3 alias trying to get me banned. The reason for this is telling the truth according to scripture and Holy Spirit Guidance. Worse still hardly anyone is sticking up for me by commenting the truth or any Christian solidarity on her vitrolic posts. She mocks and scoffs, falsely accuses slanders and says I'm unbiblical. All things which can be easily and quickly disproved. The worst example is a woman I befriended over a year ago as I saw by her posts she was in emotional spiritual and financial distress. So I had compassion on her as any real Christian would.
I have given her easily over a thousand pounds this last year. She used to say she loved me and that I was one of only a few genuine Christians on the site. I had to write to her personally the other night to ask why she had turned her back on me in my hour of need. She replied without even a hint of an apology saying she has her own problems. I have overcome a lot worse but I am fine now because I sook Yashaya's face with all my heart confessed repented kept His statues laws and commandments like our Messiah and the early church did. I am nothing special. Anyone can do this by reading the Bible and being a doer of it. once you have the Ruwach the Holy Spirit She dwells in you and makes it easier for you.
So I wrote back and pointed all this out to her but she still has not apologised or supported me in my hour of need. This is indeed breaking my heart as well as the silence by most of the rest with a couple of exceptions.
Not only is she being horrible to me a saint of the Most High but she is disrespecting and disobeying Him. So even though she has backstabbed me and refused to repented I am still caring fo rher and worried for the sake of her eternal soul. There is only heaven or hell and our Father cannot allow sinners into heaven. No matter how much He loves us all - How can He and why should He. It will just end up like this fallen world all over again.
The whole point of heaven is that it is for the pure dedicated believers who are saved by grace and appreciate it and don't abuse that grace and so loose their faith. They use this grace to obey the Torah as best they can. Knowing if we slip up a little His blood is able to cover our sins and blot them out and He will forgive us, according to scripture.
I am also slightly worried that the demons that used to oppress and terrorise me before Messiah healed me from schitzophrenia will return in this hour of weakness. I don't think this is too likely I can feel Christ's light and presence burning in my heart still but I just want to cover all bases.
Thanks so much for praying and hopefully understanding. i really feel I can be my true self here and not looked down on taken advantage of or mocked or called mad a witch a false prophet etc.
Yah bless you all to the uttermost and give you your true new hearts desires according to His own perfect will and timing. sister Michelle. every blessing.
