my heart is heavy. my head is full and spinning. so tired. weary and feeling weak. despair. deferred hope is said to make the heart sick. yes it does at that. too much to carry alone. i got zero support. called on the name of the lord god and even he is silent for many years. i hesitate posting...
there isnt anything good in my life. one darn thing after another. losing hope. not sure if i have faith anymore. life isnt worth living. fake friends. family telling lies and have always made me out to be the bad person.
fed up of trying and getting no help from all the people ive helped. zero...
