time bomb

I feel so terrible. Everyday in the NICU, I feel so out of place, I feel like I am a walking cautionary tale. A timebomb ticking, waiting to explode. And now, I've committed a big error.. missing a dose for 2 of a baby's antibiotics because the medicine cards used in administering the meds were...

Please pray that I receive death. Without a soul. I don't want any part of this spiritual-warfare game between God and and satan that I was placed into. This life of mine and terrible world as it is, makes the love story spoken of in the New Testament seem like a cheap, meaningless love story...