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my heart is heavy. my head is full and spinning. so tired. weary and feeling weak. despair. deferred hope is said to make the heart sick. yes it does at that. too much to carry alone. i got zero support. called on the name of the lord god and even he is silent for many years. i hesitate posting...

im so tired of praying, asking for prayers and hoping, believing. just to be disappointed repeatedly when my prayers aren't answered and i'm in basically the same place (situation) as I was before. people tell me to not lose hope. to keep trusting and believing. i have done that - or tried to do...