stagnant purposeless life

My Lord, I HAD ENOUGH OF LIVING A STAGNANT, PURPOSELESS LIFE. I AM BEING HELD A PRISONER IN MY OWN HOME. I HAVE OBEYED TO YOU SINCE I RECEIVED CHRIST IN MY HEART BACK IN 1999. YET INSTEAD OF BLESSING ME YOU KEEP BLESSING EVIL PEOPLE, INCLUDING MY ENEMIES. THIS IS ALL CONTRADICTORY TO WHAT YOUR...