There is something wrong with my life rejection, stagnation, joblessness, lust, I watch pornography just to feel something, anything, then masturbate and feel nothing, shame doesn't live here, am numb to it, guilt doesn't live here, am numb to it. My life is like a wilderness, nothing to show...
Here is 5:27am, I still cannot sleep, very strange. Pray that I will find peace n rest in God. I will be able to sleep at 10pm then wake up in early morning quiet time with God. Pray that God helps me with this that I will hv a settled heart and I can hv recovering sleep each night. In Jesus'...