self sex

I gave my life to jesus in 2018 but in 2019 attacks started on me still i stood with lord but these attacks increased too much on me in 2020 i went into sin self sex lying stealing , watching porn, misbehavior, and had relations with girls because of which my life was disappointed please pray...

I ask you who read this to talk to God, to Jesus and ask him to give strength to stop lust and self sex that has controlled me since I was a teenager, I am slightly mentally handicapped and my wife does not know anything, I wish I was not married, I wish I was dead in the gutter like all the sex...