religious school

Please pray for God to either shut this door and open another one or show me why he has me in this job. It's a religious school but a horrible atmosphere......my stress levels can't take much more of this verbal abuse

I sit here wondering why continue life... Almost 20 years of extreme pain, multiple surgeries, constant screaming and crying in agony. Prescription pills, weed, prayer...I've found no relief. Every single day I wake trying to find the strength to do just one more day. I'm crushed as it's getting...