regular person

Heavenly father, I was thinking I need you to help me break off these chains again and make me feel righteous. Is there a way I can still feel like a regular person and not a surgical instrument? Like how I was before all changing but so I still feel like regular people do. I could see someone...

I have not failed here. Please do something tonight or I don't know what might happen I'm just a regular person but.. I know I was only ### and I'm not baptized with the spirit but please do this now. I'm out of my head.. why are you procrastinating on this? In Jesus mighty name amen