negative purpose

Eternal God and loving Father, give me wisdom to understand why I'm going through the things Im going through and to know that your path is the only path that I need that if I continue to seek you I will start to see my answers within and everything will come together like a puzzle in a positive...

Lord I'm trying to be productive and find a new purpose and new friends for a year now. I don't understand why these things aren't working out and why you want me to be content inside my apartment alone with my pets, with nothing to do but basic like eat, go to bathroom clean up after myself. It...