mental health condition psychosis

I would really like prayer. I was sexually abused as a child and because of what I went through I developed a mental health condition ( psychosis ) because of the trauma. I would really like god to heal me and would like to come off my medication. I keep asking god to reveal his plan for me but...

I was sexually abused as a child and my mother was one of the main ring leaders. ( Judith hudson ) . I still feel troubled by this . Something is deeply upsetting me and I can't fathom out what it is. It's on the tip of my tongue. All of this has led me to not being able to trust god as it was...