lost cause

I feel like I'm fighting a lost cause. Are these the signs I'm supposed to see? Why don't I know? Why can't I see them. Lord, help me please. I'm begging you! Do I hope for Scott and I or let go? Please Lord

Jesus I don't know if this I hear is the CIA, FBI NSA, or the local cops around me or the pastor at the church or who's voice I hear in the v2k that's stubborn and wont leave me alone but I have recordings of them and can prove eventually in a court of law that they are harrassing me and have...

I am wretched man, Dying ashes or long lost ligth, Detoriating, I am slowly turning cold, My heart still pumping, But my love burning low, I am loosing my sigth, My sigth of Christ, As I slowly sink in this treachury of sin, A pleasure of a moment, Sold at the price of eternity, Am I lost cause...