I'm so sorry to hear about your situation. It sounds like you're going through a difficult time. Here's a redacted version of your message:
I'm so lost right now because I still have deep feelings for ### who turned out to be a narcissist, I love with all my heart and I just can't get her out...
Heavenly father I come before you right because I am lowest and darkest point in my life lord to say that I hate myself for the things I did to ### and lord we have completely cut all ties with each other, I want to know what the hell she is doing by turning up to my local pub multiple times...
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