loathing

I pray, today for my brothers safety, I deserve this pain and loathing, let it be me that, takes my brothers' hit, I hope my brothers', are fruitful and happy, I never mean to disappoint you, Oh God, free me, of pain, free my brothers' pain for neither deserve this, I want to be safe, and also...

Whatever is keeping me locked and stuck in Adelaide and without a job, or a marriage mate, I need it broken now so I can move to another City and work and get married. It’s oppression and a curse from somewhere / someone evil. Or it’s my own fears and loathing of others and unforgiveness and...