imaginary life

I feel so lonely, I'm not living in present always living in an imaginary life that if it should happen my life would be quite happy., why I'm having this of feelings that I cannot acheive anything in my life, i'm failing in every step of my life, my boyfriend is not getting ready to marry me...

I'm tumiso from south Africa I need advice I'm 27 years never dated before because I'm waiting on God to send me a good man. So I created an image of the kind of a man I want in my head and now I can't forget abt him . Is it wrong to have an imaginary life?