hard love

I'm requesting prayer for my sexual immortality/porn addiction/sin.... I really am trying hard I love Jesus Christ and I'm not trying to break the guilt spirit's heart. I feel so guilty and I pray the Lord can forgive me even know I repeatedly fall short. Thank you for your prayers.

Heavenly Father, if you can get him out, please, it's more important to me that he comes out of there than what I want. I know your ways are not my ways, and thank God for that because I don't care for human ways. I fail everything; why do I fail everything? I don't understand myself at all...

I pray that God fills the deep void I have within myself. I've tried to fill this void with everything to make me happy-- Work, people, drugs, sex, money (Nothing Works) I'm always lonely, depressed, anxious, and overwhelmed. COVID 19 and the quarantine that happened as a result only heightened...