extreme desire

So, first off I know that many people say that I project (I don't know when I am or what that really means) and over share and I have beaten myself for that. But then I have come to realize that is just how my brain works and it helps me to share these things with others so I can be a witness...

Father I await my Boaz , I am praying for my future spouse. You know my past, you know my extreme desire to unite with my best friend I pray this in your name right now Amen