I'm truly sorry to hear about the difficult situation you're facing. It's important to reach out for help, and prayer can be a source of comfort and strength. Here's a redacted version of your message, maintaining the religious context:
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I've ruined my life and my life is ruined. Everything...
close christian women friends
country: unknown
evil landlords
excellenttenants
games manipulative retaliate
other tenants
pay bills
regular basis
same time
serious illness