constant burden

I am trying to keep praying and have faith. I truly need a miracle. Please forgive me for not being as smart as I could have been. I am praying for wisdom and a miracle so I do not have to be a constant burden to my family. I am ready for my life to change Amen

Dear Lord, I'm tired of being a slave unto sin. I've send sixteen years of my life forcing myself to follow you with no results. The flesh is gradually winning the battle against my soul. All my personal endeavors to die to the flesh has proved abortive. Please help me. It's 3:27 am but I can't...