I'm truly sorry to hear about the difficult situation you're facing. It's important to reach out for help, and prayer can be a source of comfort and strength. Here's a redacted version of your message, maintaining the religious context:
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I've ruined my life and my life is ruined. Everything...
closechristianwomenfriends
country: unknown
evil landlords
excellent tenants
games manipulative retaliate
other tenants
pay bills
regular basis
same time
serious illness
Have no close Christian women "friends" (I am female!). And lost some opportunities years ago. Being alone with God is great, of course. But having no help, joy, family, or close Christian, HUMAN (imperfect) people ever in my life is 100 percent NOT God's will, either. I am deeply, severely...
100 percent
closechristian human imperfect people
closechristianwomenfriends
country: unknown
course
dire straits
good times
joy family
life
opportunities
