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I have to write a testimony for my baptism next week and I have no clue my family was disfuncational I was the middle child always looking for someone to just love me always booze around with parents was wronged bye people not ok my life went on with me blaming god for all of it why he would do...

Lord thank you so much for everything you have done for me your a great God and know I not been the best Christian and working on to be better person please help me with that cause I don't what to do anymore lord I need your help to figure how to make things better I pray this your name amen